A morning walk..

I was out for a morning walk today at the marina and things seemed to have changed quite drastically from what it used to be..

many things had changed... Once a haven for cricket freaks now bears a deserted look..

yes.. Cricket is banned on the marina now and i wonder where all those people have vanished?

I'm not a regular morning walker( laziness takes the better of me) and these changes were quite difficult to get to terms with.. i remember those days when me and my group of comrades( just referring to my friends) used to go early and reserve a spot for ourselves and how we continued playing cricket for hours and hours and now this...

The police patrolling has always been there but now it seems to be even more with lady police occupying their stand even after the others on cavalry have left!

one incident that happened today involved a speeding biker.. he was racing through at about 60kmph or so through the area where all the joggers and others walk through and immediately i could see some unrest among the police... As i was walking i heard a police constable inform someone over the walkie talkie to get hold of the guy and be very harsh with him! he was also instructing them not to let him go easily..

the guy must have been 18 or maybe 19 years old and was racing on a yellow Karizma.. how he got in in spite of all the police patrolling is quite surprising.. anyways he was caught and this i came to know when a angry morning walker was making his voice heard to a cavalry policeman...

after this i overheard at least three more conversations where the morning walkers were showing their anguish and disgust at the biker!

so.. that was that... another change one could easily note is the cleanliness of the pavement and the roads, the huge stones placed as a sign of some sort of fencing, the mosaic stairs, water sprinklers, the newly constructed-odd looking bus stops adjacent to the beach..

Marina swimming pool bearing a new look with a widened road in front of it...

i guess that's pretty much the changes i noticed..

oh yea in the end i noticed a pretty lady taking her dog around for walk.. damn... she was pretty!

oh yea the dog was a Labrador... and you thought i did not notice the dog?? :P ha ha!

I am not used to praising the Chennai police but when it comes to patrolling the marina in the mornings and providing a safe and sound environment for the morning walkers, i wont be exaggerating if i say 'Kudos' to them!

Never felt this way before!!

I've never felt this way before, i just wanna keep writing more and more

I've never felt this way before,thoughts seem to just pour and pour

'period'

I've never felt this way before,life is beginning to feel so sore

Ive never felt this way before,numbness seems to have filled me galore

I've never felt this way before, hope seems to take some sort of detour

I've never felt this way before, not sure if i could take it anymore!

I dont know why..

I dont why but i cant get any sleep now...

i wakeup in the middle of the night with a pounding heart only to realize i've been struck with a dart!

i dont know where these thoughts are coming from, never knew they were even there!

i wakeup in the middle of the night hoping it was all but a nightmare but then on realization i regret having woke up, i swear!

maybe i'd like to sleep for ever for i've crossed my miles and have no more to go!

maybe i'd like to sleep for ever for i've crossed my miles and have no more to go!

ir maybe you can wake me up and bid me goodbye before i go...

i dont know why i cant take you off my mind now and i dont know why i feel like i've just killed someone!

i dont know why but i cant get any sleep now...

time seems to have stopped and the heartbeats even harded and every beat reminds me im sinful!

every beat reminds me im sinful and i think you should know that im remorseful..

i think you should know that im remorseful..

is this not a pain big enough or do u wish to let me suffer even more? do u wish me to let me suffer even more?

you know i need your solace, you know i need your solace but i dont know why you seem to have forgotten that...

is it really true that people change in a matter of even seconds? is it really true?

as far as i know they seem to change only over the years,as far as i know they seem to change only over the years...

but i guess my sin made you change within seconds or maybe i dont know what made you abandon me...

i dont know why the heart is still pounding and i dont know if it would survive all this suffering!

i really dont know if it could survive all this pain and suffering!! :(

is this what you wanted?

i just cant seem to get any sleep now... maybe im thinking about the good times we shared...

i just cant seem to take my mind off you now.. maybe im thinking about the good times we shared...

i now know i was wrong and i regret it,i now know i was wrong and i regret it... is there anything i can do to undo it? is there really anyything i could do to undo it?

I know you want me to change, i know you want me change,would you be happy if i change into a monster?

I know you want me to change but would you be happier if i changed into a monster?

i know that i regret my words and maybe i did not mean what i said,but still i regret it..

is not remorse a pain big enough to punish me with?is not remorse a pain big enough to punish me with?

the pain of loosing you will always be there but i will always curse myself for loosing you and that i will always!

I hope you are happy whereever you are and that you forget me whenever you can...

I hope you are happy whereever you are and that you forget me whenever you can so that i do not remain as a bad memory to you....

i just want you to know that i regret my words and now that you have abandoned me i have no where else to seek refuge from..

no where else to seek refuge from...

from the deepest cries of my heart- I am sorry! :(

I just wanna cry out loud!

what do i do when i wanna cry out loud?

where do i go when i wanna cry out loud?

I've only heard that men dont cry out loud!

so does that make me less manly when i wanna cry out loud?

i just wanna cry out loud and clear this burden off... i just wanna cry out loud...

i haven felt this way before in a loong time but today i wanna cry out loud...

i know i have sinned and i regret it as you made me realize how miserable i am...

i know i have sinned and i regret it as you made me realize how senseless i am...

for now i just wanna cry out loud and clear this burden off... i wanna cry out loud ...

i dont care what the world thinks... i wonder what the world does when it wants to cry out loud?

maybe its during the rains that all these MEN weep and clear their burdens off ...

maybe its during the rains that the MEN cry out loud and clear their burdens off...

But i cant wait for the rains now and i just wanna cry out loud!

Never have i felt so miserable and never have i felt myself in so much despair before...

The light seems to fade away,my thoughts seem to sway...

No more can i hold em back no more can i hold em back, i just wanna cry out loud!!!!!!